Thank you..

Thank you so much to all my friends that had wished me Happy Birthday...

I really appreciate it..

Eventhough we don't know that well..

Eventhough we only be friend for only a few couple of months..

I really genuine feel thanks and embarrassed on the same time since I don't remember all of you guys birthday...

But still I will try to remember it and wish it on the exact time...

And for Renji..

Sorry, i REALLY sorry for distancing myself from you..

You are not on false here...

So, I really hope that you guys forgive me..

Thank you for all the wishes you ad made...

Thank you very much...

Chapter 6 - Resolve!!

Chapter 6 - Resolve

RESOLVE!

If you counter, don't let him hit you

If you protect someone, don't let him die

If you attack, kill.

-Urahara Kisuke-

Akiko attacked without knowing what happen to her... Suddenly a very vigorous aura engulfed her and with such an overwhelming power, a two-edges pointed sword was forming in Akiko hand. Akiko blinked. What happened to me? I can't control my body. My body didn't followed my brain. Why is it so dark? I can't see a thing? What's happening??

But on the other side of the tatami mat which facing Akiko was a bewildered Kakashi. It seems like Kakashi had been mesmerized by the sight of the forming-sword. Suddenly Kakashi murmured something "Ikiru!! But it should have been destroyed. What?? What is Ikiru doing with Akiko. I taught it was vanished." Then, Kakashi glimpsed at Akiko. It seems Akiko lose control. Her eyes is darking. What is happening? Kakashi stepped forward but without even a blinked Akiko swing "Ikiru" and cut through some of Kakashi's hair. "Akiko, stop!! What are you doing?? I know you are mad, but please stop. Fight it Akiko! I know you are there. Fight it!!".

Akiko felt really useless even when Kakashi kept encourage her to regain herself back but it seems something was holding her back. Shit!! Why can't I control myself. With this keep going I will surely lose my self and end up being eaten by this darkness. Otou-san, Sakura-chan help me. Help me!! Suddenly Akiko saw a figure. A human. A man with a gray hair and a deep penetrating crimson eyes. That man then, pulle dhis hands to Akiko. Kakashi?? What is he doing here? Isn't he a bad person. Why??

Kakashi who was busying kept a distance from Akiko suddenly felt tumbling to the ground. Man!! This is trouble-some. Without averting his eyes from Akiko, Kakashi started mumbling something. Suddenly a white-glowing chain struck Akiko's body and pinned her whole being against the tatami mat. Kakashi then, stood right next to her and made a hand stance and suddenly he froze like a human without a soul.

Akiko. It seems like Kakashi soul was inside Akiko inner-world desperately to get her back. Akiko it's me. I mean no harm. Please Akiko grap my hand. Hurry! Before Ikiru started to eat you alive. Akiko hurry!! Please!!

"Ka-kashi" Akiko can voiced herself out. It seems like she can't talked and move at all. Even though it surprised her to no end when Kakashi suddenly asked her to grab her hand. Then, when she hear the desperation of Kakashi voice to save her, without a doubt her hand move on her own and grabbed firmly on Kakashi hand. After that, it seems her world go white.

Kakashi gave out a relief sighed after seeing Akiko got back to her body. It was surely a relief but this problem had become worse. Not because Akiko didn't want to listen to him, but she also possessed "Ikiru" which should had been vanished long time ago. It looks like the first thing I need to do tomorrow is explain throughly to this girl what really had happen and what actually is she. But it will be hard. Haisyh!!! It so trouble-some. Then, I have to really investigate about "Ikiru". Man!! A lot of work. Seems I have to ask for "his" help. No choice.

Sorry for the long wait. Please leave a comment ok? It will encourage me to write more.

To be continued.....

夢 - Dream

If you ask me what I want to be, I will answer "I want to become an ultraman".

(Hahaha...) If I were still a kid maybe I would answer something like that. But if you ask me now what I want to be. Hmmm... It will take a while because there are many things I want to be. I want to become a doctor, basketball player, writer, artist and so on.

But lately, when I pried my surrounding, I would get this feeling that all human have -jealousy-. Yes!! Envious, anxious, curious, feeling of overwhelming when seeing someone succeed. Why?? because I want to be success to like everyone else only that it's hard. Hard because I can't control my feeling whenever or whatever I do. I would follow my seven sense, instinct and of course my heart but it seems every time I followed it, it became unexpected which leads to something misfortune.

Especially when we have someone like siblings that even far greater than ourself. It felt like a burden you know?? A heavy overweight burden like the world is on our shoulder because everyone assume that we are better and good than our siblings. Everyone expect ourself to achieve their expectations. But, when we failed, we could be disowned by the others or maybe get rid off. And it is freaking nerve-wracking because it seems like out exist-ion in this world is only to meet their expectations.

It's hard to meet other people expectation but at first, I think hmm... maybe I really must, compulsory to beat my brother if it's not, it's the end of the world. But everything I do always wrong and everyone always questioned my ability "Is he really his brother?, is he really the siblings of that good student??". Whenever I heard that quotes I would told myself why? why? I can't meet their expectation? Why can't become better than him?

After some thought, I started to realize, If I want to become better than my brothers, I must work hard maybe at first it will be hard, but it will be worth it. Maybe compare to my brothers I'm more talkative and sometime crazy but life is not fairytale right?? Myself is mine alone. If other people expect I'm like my brothers. They are wrong. That's definitely. Because I'm not my brothers. I'm myself.

And I am gonna surpass my brothers my own way. Right now, I don't care what other people say, front or behind. As long that I am myself that's fine. I don't want to become other people. I want to become myself.

Brothers I will beat you all. Definitely. I will make mother and father proud. I will succeed and break all of your records. For sure. it's only matter of time. But I will prove myself that I'm better than all of you and with my own way I will reach my dream.

-がんばっていきまっしょ-