My Cat... -Chibi-

Okay... For your information, those pictures above are all my cat... She is really naughty and hyperactive...

Sleeping is her hobby.....

A cute one...

hahahaha....

Thank you..

Thank you so much to all my friends that had wished me Happy Birthday...

I really appreciate it..

Eventhough we don't know that well..

Eventhough we only be friend for only a few couple of months..

I really genuine feel thanks and embarrassed on the same time since I don't remember all of you guys birthday...

But still I will try to remember it and wish it on the exact time...

And for Renji..

Sorry, i REALLY sorry for distancing myself from you..

You are not on false here...

So, I really hope that you guys forgive me..

Thank you for all the wishes you ad made...

Thank you very much...

Chapter 6 - Resolve!!

Chapter 6 - Resolve

RESOLVE!

If you counter, don't let him hit you

If you protect someone, don't let him die

If you attack, kill.

-Urahara Kisuke-

Akiko attacked without knowing what happen to her... Suddenly a very vigorous aura engulfed her and with such an overwhelming power, a two-edges pointed sword was forming in Akiko hand. Akiko blinked. What happened to me? I can't control my body. My body didn't followed my brain. Why is it so dark? I can't see a thing? What's happening??

But on the other side of the tatami mat which facing Akiko was a bewildered Kakashi. It seems like Kakashi had been mesmerized by the sight of the forming-sword. Suddenly Kakashi murmured something "Ikiru!! But it should have been destroyed. What?? What is Ikiru doing with Akiko. I taught it was vanished." Then, Kakashi glimpsed at Akiko. It seems Akiko lose control. Her eyes is darking. What is happening? Kakashi stepped forward but without even a blinked Akiko swing "Ikiru" and cut through some of Kakashi's hair. "Akiko, stop!! What are you doing?? I know you are mad, but please stop. Fight it Akiko! I know you are there. Fight it!!".

Akiko felt really useless even when Kakashi kept encourage her to regain herself back but it seems something was holding her back. Shit!! Why can't I control myself. With this keep going I will surely lose my self and end up being eaten by this darkness. Otou-san, Sakura-chan help me. Help me!! Suddenly Akiko saw a figure. A human. A man with a gray hair and a deep penetrating crimson eyes. That man then, pulle dhis hands to Akiko. Kakashi?? What is he doing here? Isn't he a bad person. Why??

Kakashi who was busying kept a distance from Akiko suddenly felt tumbling to the ground. Man!! This is trouble-some. Without averting his eyes from Akiko, Kakashi started mumbling something. Suddenly a white-glowing chain struck Akiko's body and pinned her whole being against the tatami mat. Kakashi then, stood right next to her and made a hand stance and suddenly he froze like a human without a soul.

Akiko. It seems like Kakashi soul was inside Akiko inner-world desperately to get her back. Akiko it's me. I mean no harm. Please Akiko grap my hand. Hurry! Before Ikiru started to eat you alive. Akiko hurry!! Please!!

"Ka-kashi" Akiko can voiced herself out. It seems like she can't talked and move at all. Even though it surprised her to no end when Kakashi suddenly asked her to grab her hand. Then, when she hear the desperation of Kakashi voice to save her, without a doubt her hand move on her own and grabbed firmly on Kakashi hand. After that, it seems her world go white.

Kakashi gave out a relief sighed after seeing Akiko got back to her body. It was surely a relief but this problem had become worse. Not because Akiko didn't want to listen to him, but she also possessed "Ikiru" which should had been vanished long time ago. It looks like the first thing I need to do tomorrow is explain throughly to this girl what really had happen and what actually is she. But it will be hard. Haisyh!!! It so trouble-some. Then, I have to really investigate about "Ikiru". Man!! A lot of work. Seems I have to ask for "his" help. No choice.

Sorry for the long wait. Please leave a comment ok? It will encourage me to write more.

To be continued.....

夢 - Dream

If you ask me what I want to be, I will answer "I want to become an ultraman".

(Hahaha...) If I were still a kid maybe I would answer something like that. But if you ask me now what I want to be. Hmmm... It will take a while because there are many things I want to be. I want to become a doctor, basketball player, writer, artist and so on.

But lately, when I pried my surrounding, I would get this feeling that all human have -jealousy-. Yes!! Envious, anxious, curious, feeling of overwhelming when seeing someone succeed. Why?? because I want to be success to like everyone else only that it's hard. Hard because I can't control my feeling whenever or whatever I do. I would follow my seven sense, instinct and of course my heart but it seems every time I followed it, it became unexpected which leads to something misfortune.

Especially when we have someone like siblings that even far greater than ourself. It felt like a burden you know?? A heavy overweight burden like the world is on our shoulder because everyone assume that we are better and good than our siblings. Everyone expect ourself to achieve their expectations. But, when we failed, we could be disowned by the others or maybe get rid off. And it is freaking nerve-wracking because it seems like out exist-ion in this world is only to meet their expectations.

It's hard to meet other people expectation but at first, I think hmm... maybe I really must, compulsory to beat my brother if it's not, it's the end of the world. But everything I do always wrong and everyone always questioned my ability "Is he really his brother?, is he really the siblings of that good student??". Whenever I heard that quotes I would told myself why? why? I can't meet their expectation? Why can't become better than him?

After some thought, I started to realize, If I want to become better than my brothers, I must work hard maybe at first it will be hard, but it will be worth it. Maybe compare to my brothers I'm more talkative and sometime crazy but life is not fairytale right?? Myself is mine alone. If other people expect I'm like my brothers. They are wrong. That's definitely. Because I'm not my brothers. I'm myself.

And I am gonna surpass my brothers my own way. Right now, I don't care what other people say, front or behind. As long that I am myself that's fine. I don't want to become other people. I want to become myself.

Brothers I will beat you all. Definitely. I will make mother and father proud. I will succeed and break all of your records. For sure. it's only matter of time. But I will prove myself that I'm better than all of you and with my own way I will reach my dream.

-がんばっていきまっしょ-

Mind-crashing

I'm so freaking damn bored.....

Arghh.. help me..

Oba-chan (ashy)....

sorry for the late update....

and to all readers even myself don't know (hahaha)... so sorry...

but please give me an idea or something....

Yeah.. just want you guys to know...

Is it true when we make a joke to someone overwhelmly is it wrong??

I'm just asking an opinion....

my friends always ask me the same question....

I don't know how to answer it...

One more thing...

why girl are so damn complicated...

it's so hard to understand them...

for the eve please answer my question...

I'm still blur whenever girl at my side....

I can only understand tHE WITCH (Mika).... hahaha..

and yeah...

it is hard to understand Malay??

man, I've been living there for 6 years... but I still couldn't understand

what people are saying...

Frustrated...

Is it that hard to recognized a true friend??

why friend always betray us??

accidentally??

why??

arghh.....

can't human understand each other...

and why girl are so sensitive when people tease them....

man....

so weird...

hahah.....

-my life-

Back in the past, I had a friend that always accompanied me wherever I was... Often, I cry back there because I felt that I'm alone. Even when my teacher try to stop me, I continued to cry over and over again. But because of her presence back there, I manage to survive. To continue on living, with a false hope that one day I will not be alone. But deep in my heart I know, one day, I am the one who will destroy this friendship, shattered her heart and make her the one who was to be blamed...

Fortunately, despite what I always said to myself that day not gonna arrived, without knowing the consequences or realize what I've been doing to her, it's already happen. I try to ask myself, what in the world did I do wrong until she despise me and does' not be able to look at me or even talk to me. But until now, I didn't get the answer.

Knowing our best friend, our childhood friend is hurt, that was mind breaking but knowing that we is the one who hurt them is more frustrating ever. I try again and again apologized to her, she said she already forgive me, but still why she didn't dare to look into my eyes at all. Am I that painful to her until she decide to hate me even on the surface she told me, I've already been forgiven...

I know I'm an outspoken person that sometime in her eyes I can see she is hurt whenever I talk to her.But why now??? When we in the verge of truth happiness she started to show me the hatefulness that she had been kept in her heart like eternity. I know all I did is hurting you and sometime I even didn't realize that it is you who have been hurt..

If everyone ask me what my wish right now, I just wanted to say if God give me one more chance the only thing that I want to do is fixed this heartbroken feeling. I will apologized to you again and again even if it's mean sacrificed everything that I had.

But I couldn't do that. Because of my shamefulness to face you or even to say sorry to you, that tortured clenched and fisted my heart into a fist that sometime I felt my heart is not mine anymore. I felt regret and humiliated, exaggeration and sometime hate to myself because the three word that can change our life is not that reliable anymore.

But still I would not give until I passed away, because I will keep trying until I know you've forgive me. I know the chance for you to forgive me is maybe does not reach 1%, but surely genuinely with all my heart and soul, no matter what you said or wronged about me, you always be in my heart, whether you like it or not.

If you read this, I want you to know, what I was before is so stupid and I'm sorry. I know you can't forgive me that easily since I've been hurting you again and again until your heart cannot be fixed again. But for ever reassured, that no matter how hard for you to forgive me, you always my friend forever and always.

And for the people who read this, Please appreciate your friend. Even they hurt us, please appreciate them. Because when without even noticing it, they already gone. So whatever you guys do, don't ever be like me. Even if it's mean risking your life, just accept the consequences because I know to keep the bonding still is painful enough that sometime we feel like dying. But, no matter one it is worth it for.

"Friends is like a balloon, once we let go they will never come back. Eventuate we can find them everywhere, in our heart we still know that the one that captured our heart is the first person that always be by our side."

If you will accepted me as your friend again, genuinely

Forever yours...

-Takeshi Ren-

Chapter 5:- Descendant of the Legendary Master

Sorry for the late update...

so sorry....

-Takeshi Ren-

Akiko wake up with a headache... She felt like "hell"..... She look around and felt very weird because she never remembered she was back at her home... Suddenly a memory come back through his head... "Right, there was a guy attacking me.... And then...... Yeah!!! That silver haired guy.... He knocked me out.... Shit!!!"... "I've to escape man, or else I'll be dead not even a second....."

She look around and find an open window... She forced her injured self to walk to that direction and suddenly felt a hand graping her wrist.. Akiko look back and find the silver haired-guy.... "Akiko-chan you're awake!!! How are you feeling??" ask the silver haired guy to Akiko... "Who are you?? Why the heck that you care about me?? Just go to hell you bastard!!!" Akiko yell full-hearted towards the guy..."Ooh... My bad!! hehehehe... I don't introduce myself to you yet, ha?? Ok!! Let's start over!!! Hello!!! My name is Shinosuke Kakashi.... Nice to meet, ya?? How about that??" the silver haired guy replied.... "Tch, I didn't ask your name... I ask who are you, Baka!!!!"... Akiko said back....

"Hahaha.... Sorry...... Hahahahaha..... You're funny you know that.... ahhh......hahahaha!!!!"...

Hey, ojii-san I ask who're you?? No t asking you to laugh..... Tch!!! "Akiko was annoyed with that guy attitude.... "Ok!!! Gomen!!! You ask me who am I, right??? I'm your warrior and your protector......." What the fuck are you talking about??? ha??? You keep saying this stupid thing from the first time we meet..... Don't play with me... Or else you're dead....." Akiko replied angrily....

"I'm not playing with you nor teasing you, Akiko-chan... I'm your warrior... You know a person name Nakamura Kazama right???" "Of course I know.... he is my father"..... "ok!!! Don't pissed off, please?? You're scraying me.... hahaha...Back to the topic... As I say, your father was the strongest Nakamura ever live.... but because of that too he was killed.... Have you ever heard a blade called "Harakiri" and "Ikiru" Akiko-chan???"..... Kakashi said calmly..... "Hmmm..... I think I heard it once when my father talked about it with my grandfather......"... Akiko replied...

"I guess she didn't tell you a little bit specific, ne??.... You know, the blade called "Harakiri"was the main reason why all people that you love died.... including your best friend Sakura...."Kakashi explained.... "What??? Are you saying my beloved person were being killed because a piece of junk.... After all the pain I've been through... It's only for a sword??? Fuck you!!!!"..... Akiko said...

"Akiko -chan, listen first ok?? That sword is not a piece of junk ok?? This sword was the only thing that can eliminated the murder of your beloved person.... And this blade was the key to unlock your family secret that had been kept for about 300 years.... that everyone were chasing for..... But because of your father foolishness for destroying the Harakiri sword, it caused a pain to all the Nakamura.... Especially y...."Shut up!!! My father is not like that..... Don't you dare talk like that about my father.... especially to me.... You Bastard!!!!!!!!!!"........

Akiko was pissing off by what she heard... She attacked Kakashi who was calmly look at her.... She was gonna punch him but suddenly Kakashi had disappear... And suddenly the grey-haired guy was beside her with a sword on his hand... Kakashi attacked Akiko mercilessly...... After a long period of fighting.... Kakashi said to Akiko "Your father is a stupid man Akiko-chan.... He only think about himself not knowing what effect to you....."

"YOU!!!! You gonna pay for what you said!!!!" Suddenly Akiko bursting off with a powerful aura around her...... "Bastard!!!!".... Akiko attacked Kakashi without knowing what is happening to her..........

To be continued......

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