Realization

Life is not a fairy tale. Sometimes when you met the kindest people, you will think, 'How I have been a bad muslim in this life'. But when you met people that you think is the worst, you will said 'Oooh, how grateful I am to Allah for give me such a pure heart'.

But sometimes, other people will always talk bad about others. That's normal because it is human nature after all. Maybe I would say that in the past. Now, when I flashed back the time I spent at Mecca, how mad and angry I felt when I heard people said something bad about others. I felt relieved because spending time really change me.

There was once at Mecca, when my fellows mate and myself at a hill called Jabal Magnet. I heard a conversation that four men were talking about. At first I could not even care less. But after a while, they started to talk about how good our country for having such system that can support citizens to study oversea.

For me was not a bother. Suddenly I noticed, one of the man was quite. Really really quite. At first I just ignored him. But, some thought hit me on the head "Of course he is quite. Compared to our country, his homeland never had such things. He only stayed in Mecca to study about Islam which take a while for him to arrived here since he is a poor person". Then, that time, I don't know why but I felt really angry because if me who is the one on the man shoes I think I will go berserk if someone say like that in front of my face.

But, he look really calm and even smile when the men about that topic repeatedly knowing the insulting was direct to him. I was shocked but then I realized, maybe it was hard for him to arrive there, but still with his du'a Allah grant his wishes to study at the Holy place compared to the other men, they maybe rich, but even a six years old kid could differentiated pure-hearted guy and a bad guy is because seriously, they still could not kept their mouth closed even though we are all in Holy place.

There, I learnt and met a lot of things. I learnt that there are people who are really poor that they even didn't have anything to eat, with an old slippers, they walked around the Mecca city with a big ambitious, that is to make Islam as a triumph in their and other people life.

I also met the most kind and shy person. Maybe he is still young and inexperienced and always apologize to my fellow friends and myself when he thought he made some fault. But seriously, looking at his streak, his face, how he talk to other people, we know that how pure this person, how lucky he is for being able to live, to study at Mecca, the city where Islam begin during our Prophet's time.

So, I just hope, in the future, I will be able to go to Mecca back and seriously, I want to become a good muslim doctor so that, I can go back there and serve muslim and others that are in need. I know, I am not a good muslim as I should be, but with this ambition, I wish that way, I could at least serve my muslim brothers and sisters there, and hope that one day I could met a person that is as kind as the "person' is.

Why Doctor? なぜ医者

Aimless life is certainly a sin. Many people have no definite aim in life. They are like the travelers going ahead without any destination. Such people lead an aimless life and what they do in life, is largely a matter of chance, determined by the circumstances in which they happen to be placed. Aimless people do not achieve anything in life. They just live because they have to live. One should have a definite purpose of life. The people who want success in life, first of all, determine their target. They keep before them their circumstances, their virtuous, their qualities, their talents and their ability to work. They select some definite target of their life and remain successful.

Different people have different aims in life. Some aim at wealth, some at power, some at fame, some at business and some at education and knowledge. My aim is neither wealth nor fame. I wish to serve by country and my religion with best of my talent. I love Islam and I really believe that everybody should think to make it a really great religion. I want to become a doctor. It is a noble profession. In medical line, there is much more scope of service. On cent serve the patients everywhere in the country. This is my personal choice. My parents have compelled me to select it. I wish to become a very successful doctor in future. So I am studying hard to achieve my target. I have keen interest in medical line, so I do not feel any trouble in studying at all. After obtaining the medical degree, I plan to work in rural areas where there is much shortage of doctors. I do not have the lust of money. I will go to the rural areas and shall help the poor people. I would be best sort of service. This will give me extreme satisfaction and that is the aim of my life. I hope one day I can achieve this dream even though there are many obstacles ahead of me, I will make sure at least, I can do something in this world. Sometime people told me, "what a snobbish thinking you can change this world!!". But I know deep in my heart it is a noble thing to do. Maybe I can't change it completely, but I hope I can build a better hope to people who are in need like the Palestinian and other Muslim or even other people.

千の夜をこえて

I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander about, within that repetition
I found a single answer
Even (if I’m) scared, and even (if I’m) hurt
I can tell the person that I love “I love you”

Do you love me? Do you not love me?
It doesn't matter to me either way
No matter how much I wish for it
There are a lot of things in this world that can't be changed
That’s right, and only the fact that I love you
Is a truth that's unchangeable by anyone

Passing through one thousand nights, (I want to overcome the thousands of nights,)
I want to tell you
There’s something that I have to tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander about, within that repetition
I found a single answer
Even (if I’m) scared, and even (if I’m) hurt
I can tell the person that I love “I love you”


Putting my feelings into words is scary, but
I can tell the person that I love “I love you”


I can’t express in words, the joy of meeting you in this big world
So we smile, singing about the autumn
That passes by in vivid colours, with a 'do-re-mi'
We turn our backs on the winter,
Waiting for the sunlight streaming through the trees in spring
And are reborn again anew, so that we can protect someone


When I look back on the path that I came down, and my destination,
I would always do it with timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeatedly went through days of not being able to love his partner honestly (straightforwardly)
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people in a flawless way (while unwounded)


Passing through one thousand nights, (I want to overcome the thousands of nights,)
I want to tell you
There’s something that I have to tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander about, within that repetition
I found a single answer
Even (if I’m) scared, and even (if I’m) hurt
I can tell the person that I love “I love you”
Even if those feelings don't come true, (Even if those thoughts aren't fulfilled,)
I can tell the person that I love “I love you”

And that's the most wonderful thing in the world

_Aqua Timez-千の夜をこえて_

Really touchy right.... Man, I heard this song and then suddenly it touched my heart. I don't know why.. But for some reason, I'm sure everyone who heard this song will feel something... It seems like it's really hard to say "I love you" to the person we love, ha? Especially if we are really coward... It takes time, and sometime it's painful for both parts to say the three words. I wonder if life is really that harsh?? Really??? I don't know... But I hope when the time come, for me, or for all of us, we will be able to do something about it. Not just letting it go and cowardly back off...

My Cat... -Chibi-

Okay... For your information, those pictures above are all my cat... She is really naughty and hyperactive...

Sleeping is her hobby.....

A cute one...

hahahaha....

Thank you..

Thank you so much to all my friends that had wished me Happy Birthday...

I really appreciate it..

Eventhough we don't know that well..

Eventhough we only be friend for only a few couple of months..

I really genuine feel thanks and embarrassed on the same time since I don't remember all of you guys birthday...

But still I will try to remember it and wish it on the exact time...

And for Renji..

Sorry, i REALLY sorry for distancing myself from you..

You are not on false here...

So, I really hope that you guys forgive me..

Thank you for all the wishes you ad made...

Thank you very much...

Chapter 6 - Resolve!!

Chapter 6 - Resolve

RESOLVE!

If you counter, don't let him hit you

If you protect someone, don't let him die

If you attack, kill.

-Urahara Kisuke-

Akiko attacked without knowing what happen to her... Suddenly a very vigorous aura engulfed her and with such an overwhelming power, a two-edges pointed sword was forming in Akiko hand. Akiko blinked. What happened to me? I can't control my body. My body didn't followed my brain. Why is it so dark? I can't see a thing? What's happening??

But on the other side of the tatami mat which facing Akiko was a bewildered Kakashi. It seems like Kakashi had been mesmerized by the sight of the forming-sword. Suddenly Kakashi murmured something "Ikiru!! But it should have been destroyed. What?? What is Ikiru doing with Akiko. I taught it was vanished." Then, Kakashi glimpsed at Akiko. It seems Akiko lose control. Her eyes is darking. What is happening? Kakashi stepped forward but without even a blinked Akiko swing "Ikiru" and cut through some of Kakashi's hair. "Akiko, stop!! What are you doing?? I know you are mad, but please stop. Fight it Akiko! I know you are there. Fight it!!".

Akiko felt really useless even when Kakashi kept encourage her to regain herself back but it seems something was holding her back. Shit!! Why can't I control myself. With this keep going I will surely lose my self and end up being eaten by this darkness. Otou-san, Sakura-chan help me. Help me!! Suddenly Akiko saw a figure. A human. A man with a gray hair and a deep penetrating crimson eyes. That man then, pulle dhis hands to Akiko. Kakashi?? What is he doing here? Isn't he a bad person. Why??

Kakashi who was busying kept a distance from Akiko suddenly felt tumbling to the ground. Man!! This is trouble-some. Without averting his eyes from Akiko, Kakashi started mumbling something. Suddenly a white-glowing chain struck Akiko's body and pinned her whole being against the tatami mat. Kakashi then, stood right next to her and made a hand stance and suddenly he froze like a human without a soul.

Akiko. It seems like Kakashi soul was inside Akiko inner-world desperately to get her back. Akiko it's me. I mean no harm. Please Akiko grap my hand. Hurry! Before Ikiru started to eat you alive. Akiko hurry!! Please!!

"Ka-kashi" Akiko can voiced herself out. It seems like she can't talked and move at all. Even though it surprised her to no end when Kakashi suddenly asked her to grab her hand. Then, when she hear the desperation of Kakashi voice to save her, without a doubt her hand move on her own and grabbed firmly on Kakashi hand. After that, it seems her world go white.

Kakashi gave out a relief sighed after seeing Akiko got back to her body. It was surely a relief but this problem had become worse. Not because Akiko didn't want to listen to him, but she also possessed "Ikiru" which should had been vanished long time ago. It looks like the first thing I need to do tomorrow is explain throughly to this girl what really had happen and what actually is she. But it will be hard. Haisyh!!! It so trouble-some. Then, I have to really investigate about "Ikiru". Man!! A lot of work. Seems I have to ask for "his" help. No choice.

Sorry for the long wait. Please leave a comment ok? It will encourage me to write more.

To be continued.....

夢 - Dream

If you ask me what I want to be, I will answer "I want to become an ultraman".

(Hahaha...) If I were still a kid maybe I would answer something like that. But if you ask me now what I want to be. Hmmm... It will take a while because there are many things I want to be. I want to become a doctor, basketball player, writer, artist and so on.

But lately, when I pried my surrounding, I would get this feeling that all human have -jealousy-. Yes!! Envious, anxious, curious, feeling of overwhelming when seeing someone succeed. Why?? because I want to be success to like everyone else only that it's hard. Hard because I can't control my feeling whenever or whatever I do. I would follow my seven sense, instinct and of course my heart but it seems every time I followed it, it became unexpected which leads to something misfortune.

Especially when we have someone like siblings that even far greater than ourself. It felt like a burden you know?? A heavy overweight burden like the world is on our shoulder because everyone assume that we are better and good than our siblings. Everyone expect ourself to achieve their expectations. But, when we failed, we could be disowned by the others or maybe get rid off. And it is freaking nerve-wracking because it seems like out exist-ion in this world is only to meet their expectations.

It's hard to meet other people expectation but at first, I think hmm... maybe I really must, compulsory to beat my brother if it's not, it's the end of the world. But everything I do always wrong and everyone always questioned my ability "Is he really his brother?, is he really the siblings of that good student??". Whenever I heard that quotes I would told myself why? why? I can't meet their expectation? Why can't become better than him?

After some thought, I started to realize, If I want to become better than my brothers, I must work hard maybe at first it will be hard, but it will be worth it. Maybe compare to my brothers I'm more talkative and sometime crazy but life is not fairytale right?? Myself is mine alone. If other people expect I'm like my brothers. They are wrong. That's definitely. Because I'm not my brothers. I'm myself.

And I am gonna surpass my brothers my own way. Right now, I don't care what other people say, front or behind. As long that I am myself that's fine. I don't want to become other people. I want to become myself.

Brothers I will beat you all. Definitely. I will make mother and father proud. I will succeed and break all of your records. For sure. it's only matter of time. But I will prove myself that I'm better than all of you and with my own way I will reach my dream.

-がんばっていきまっしょ-

Mind-crashing

I'm so freaking damn bored.....

Arghh.. help me..

Oba-chan (ashy)....

sorry for the late update....

and to all readers even myself don't know (hahaha)... so sorry...

but please give me an idea or something....

Yeah.. just want you guys to know...

Is it true when we make a joke to someone overwhelmly is it wrong??

I'm just asking an opinion....

my friends always ask me the same question....

I don't know how to answer it...

One more thing...

why girl are so damn complicated...

it's so hard to understand them...

for the eve please answer my question...

I'm still blur whenever girl at my side....

I can only understand tHE WITCH (Mika).... hahaha..

and yeah...

it is hard to understand Malay??

man, I've been living there for 6 years... but I still couldn't understand

what people are saying...

Frustrated...

Is it that hard to recognized a true friend??

why friend always betray us??

accidentally??

why??

arghh.....

can't human understand each other...

and why girl are so sensitive when people tease them....

man....

so weird...

hahah.....

-my life-

Back in the past, I had a friend that always accompanied me wherever I was... Often, I cry back there because I felt that I'm alone. Even when my teacher try to stop me, I continued to cry over and over again. But because of her presence back there, I manage to survive. To continue on living, with a false hope that one day I will not be alone. But deep in my heart I know, one day, I am the one who will destroy this friendship, shattered her heart and make her the one who was to be blamed...

Fortunately, despite what I always said to myself that day not gonna arrived, without knowing the consequences or realize what I've been doing to her, it's already happen. I try to ask myself, what in the world did I do wrong until she despise me and does' not be able to look at me or even talk to me. But until now, I didn't get the answer.

Knowing our best friend, our childhood friend is hurt, that was mind breaking but knowing that we is the one who hurt them is more frustrating ever. I try again and again apologized to her, she said she already forgive me, but still why she didn't dare to look into my eyes at all. Am I that painful to her until she decide to hate me even on the surface she told me, I've already been forgiven...

I know I'm an outspoken person that sometime in her eyes I can see she is hurt whenever I talk to her.But why now??? When we in the verge of truth happiness she started to show me the hatefulness that she had been kept in her heart like eternity. I know all I did is hurting you and sometime I even didn't realize that it is you who have been hurt..

If everyone ask me what my wish right now, I just wanted to say if God give me one more chance the only thing that I want to do is fixed this heartbroken feeling. I will apologized to you again and again even if it's mean sacrificed everything that I had.

But I couldn't do that. Because of my shamefulness to face you or even to say sorry to you, that tortured clenched and fisted my heart into a fist that sometime I felt my heart is not mine anymore. I felt regret and humiliated, exaggeration and sometime hate to myself because the three word that can change our life is not that reliable anymore.

But still I would not give until I passed away, because I will keep trying until I know you've forgive me. I know the chance for you to forgive me is maybe does not reach 1%, but surely genuinely with all my heart and soul, no matter what you said or wronged about me, you always be in my heart, whether you like it or not.

If you read this, I want you to know, what I was before is so stupid and I'm sorry. I know you can't forgive me that easily since I've been hurting you again and again until your heart cannot be fixed again. But for ever reassured, that no matter how hard for you to forgive me, you always my friend forever and always.

And for the people who read this, Please appreciate your friend. Even they hurt us, please appreciate them. Because when without even noticing it, they already gone. So whatever you guys do, don't ever be like me. Even if it's mean risking your life, just accept the consequences because I know to keep the bonding still is painful enough that sometime we feel like dying. But, no matter one it is worth it for.

"Friends is like a balloon, once we let go they will never come back. Eventuate we can find them everywhere, in our heart we still know that the one that captured our heart is the first person that always be by our side."

If you will accepted me as your friend again, genuinely

Forever yours...

-Takeshi Ren-

Chapter 5:- Descendant of the Legendary Master

Sorry for the late update...

so sorry....

-Takeshi Ren-

Akiko wake up with a headache... She felt like "hell"..... She look around and felt very weird because she never remembered she was back at her home... Suddenly a memory come back through his head... "Right, there was a guy attacking me.... And then...... Yeah!!! That silver haired guy.... He knocked me out.... Shit!!!"... "I've to escape man, or else I'll be dead not even a second....."

She look around and find an open window... She forced her injured self to walk to that direction and suddenly felt a hand graping her wrist.. Akiko look back and find the silver haired-guy.... "Akiko-chan you're awake!!! How are you feeling??" ask the silver haired guy to Akiko... "Who are you?? Why the heck that you care about me?? Just go to hell you bastard!!!" Akiko yell full-hearted towards the guy..."Ooh... My bad!! hehehehe... I don't introduce myself to you yet, ha?? Ok!! Let's start over!!! Hello!!! My name is Shinosuke Kakashi.... Nice to meet, ya?? How about that??" the silver haired guy replied.... "Tch, I didn't ask your name... I ask who are you, Baka!!!!"... Akiko said back....

"Hahaha.... Sorry...... Hahahahaha..... You're funny you know that.... ahhh......hahahaha!!!!"...

Hey, ojii-san I ask who're you?? No t asking you to laugh..... Tch!!! "Akiko was annoyed with that guy attitude.... "Ok!!! Gomen!!! You ask me who am I, right??? I'm your warrior and your protector......." What the fuck are you talking about??? ha??? You keep saying this stupid thing from the first time we meet..... Don't play with me... Or else you're dead....." Akiko replied angrily....

"I'm not playing with you nor teasing you, Akiko-chan... I'm your warrior... You know a person name Nakamura Kazama right???" "Of course I know.... he is my father"..... "ok!!! Don't pissed off, please?? You're scraying me.... hahaha...Back to the topic... As I say, your father was the strongest Nakamura ever live.... but because of that too he was killed.... Have you ever heard a blade called "Harakiri" and "Ikiru" Akiko-chan???"..... Kakashi said calmly..... "Hmmm..... I think I heard it once when my father talked about it with my grandfather......"... Akiko replied...

"I guess she didn't tell you a little bit specific, ne??.... You know, the blade called "Harakiri"was the main reason why all people that you love died.... including your best friend Sakura...."Kakashi explained.... "What??? Are you saying my beloved person were being killed because a piece of junk.... After all the pain I've been through... It's only for a sword??? Fuck you!!!!"..... Akiko said...

"Akiko -chan, listen first ok?? That sword is not a piece of junk ok?? This sword was the only thing that can eliminated the murder of your beloved person.... And this blade was the key to unlock your family secret that had been kept for about 300 years.... that everyone were chasing for..... But because of your father foolishness for destroying the Harakiri sword, it caused a pain to all the Nakamura.... Especially y...."Shut up!!! My father is not like that..... Don't you dare talk like that about my father.... especially to me.... You Bastard!!!!!!!!!!"........

Akiko was pissing off by what she heard... She attacked Kakashi who was calmly look at her.... She was gonna punch him but suddenly Kakashi had disappear... And suddenly the grey-haired guy was beside her with a sword on his hand... Kakashi attacked Akiko mercilessly...... After a long period of fighting.... Kakashi said to Akiko "Your father is a stupid man Akiko-chan.... He only think about himself not knowing what effect to you....."

"YOU!!!! You gonna pay for what you said!!!!" Suddenly Akiko bursting off with a powerful aura around her...... "Bastard!!!!".... Akiko attacked Kakashi without knowing what is happening to her..........

To be continued......

"

Chapter 4:- The Saviour- Past & Present

Believe in ourselves to achieve
truth......

-Pein-

"Hi Akiko-chan.. Long time no see..." Akiko was shocked "Y-You.... You're that guy aren't ya???

*Flashback*
-Akiko was playing football and tag with her parents at the Shibuya Park... They were very happy that time.... After a tiring game, Akiko's parents decided to buy some drinks and snacks for their daughter living Akiko alone at the park.... After a few minutes her parents live her, she went to the pond at the center of the park and walk at the side of the pond by herself.... Suddenly, a powerful force push her to the pond.... When the time she's going to fall into the pond, a guy with a black-grey haired guy grab her body and pull her up to stabilized her...
Akiko who was shocked at the incident, cried loudly, until she saw the black-grey haired guy, she looked at the guy face and after a few minutes staring, she was stunning at the guy face... The guy just smiled and said "Be careful Akiko-chan, I'll always be by your side ok???".... Akiko who is still blur, didn't understand what just happened....
*End of Flashback*

"Yes I'm... You still remember me aren't ya??"... said the black-grey haired man. "Tch, what are you doing here bastard???"...... Akiko ask that guy with an impolite attitude... The guy only smiled and said "Just like your mother aren't' you?? hahaha...." After that the guy vanished and suddenly appeared at the back red-haired guy...... Without no chance to talk, the black-grey haired guy slash the neck of the red haired guy with no hesitation.

Akiko who saw that suddenly back of from the black-grey haired guy who was now in front of her... The guy just smirked with Akiko reaction and said "Do not be afraid... I'm not your enemy, Akiko-chan".... Akiko who heard it just back off more than her did just a few second and said "Who are you, ha?? How do you know my name??? "...
The guy just sighed and said "Please don't be afraid... I'm not gonna hurt you ok???.... And he move a few step forward towards Akiko...
Akiko who was really pissed with the guy answer of her question (actually she is scared..... hahaha....) Step back off a few more centimetre from the guy....

The guy who was watching Akiko action just sighed and said "Akiko-chan please would you stop doing that, please don't back off ok?? I'm not gonna hurt you... I'm just gonna check your wound on your neck ok???" And suddenly, he dissapeared and re-appeared again st the side of frightened (but still showing her braveness) Akiko.....

That guy suddenly hit Akiko at the neck.... Akiko passed out....
That guy just laugh and said "Haisy.... Like mother like daughter, hmmm........" and take her away from the street....

Where that guy gonna take Akiko??

Is he really that kind??

Or is it something behind that kindness??

Want to know??

Looks like you guys have to wait because I'm not gonne be around this days...

So maybe about two weeks I'll update the new chapter....

So Sorry....

Chapter 3 : Mysterious Men....

Sometime, we have to believe the person that we hate

if we want to know the truth..

-Ryoutaro-

"I've found you Nakamura Akiko, my master"..... After that, Renji was surrounded by a light-circle with a lot of sign and powerful aura..... And after a few minutes, Renji was transform into a handsome guy and a robe like a raincoat covered his head and one thing that make him really look mysterious.... He has a katana (long sword) in his wrist. with a weird symbol of lightning on it......... "Ha, finally I can be myself again"... That's the only thing he said before he disappeared from the sight without knowing where he gonna go.........

Nakamura Akiko was skipping her class again today.... She planned to go to the city for wasting her time....... First, she go to Harajuku... Playing a lot of games there... And then, She go to Shibuya, reading a lots of manga... she wondered all around the city by herself like a lost child.....Without noticing it, it's already dark... After, about three hours walking alone in that big city.... she went to the train station to take a train and back to her home which is unknown... She really doesn't know where is her home.... After Sakura died, her house fall into her uncle and that's mean she doesn't has a home anymore.... Every past night, She just sleep at the park or at her school...

And she decided she is going to sleep at the park tonight... When she arrived at Tokyo, she go to the grocery shop first and then straight to the park.... On the way home... Suddenly a guy with a short red-haired attack her with a powerful source of fire aura in his hand and shot it towards Nakamura Akiko.... Gladly, because Akiko is one of the most powerful descendent's of Nakamura family with such an amazing skill of swordsmanship, she dodge the attack....

And then, that red-haired guy look at Nakamura Akiko... He just smiled and said .... "That's expected from the Nakmura.... And out of blue, that guy was behind Akiko, with a short fire blade which is made from his spirit energy on her neck.... Akiko was shocked.... She try to struggle but, that guy hold her so tight that she even can't breath properly... Akiko who is really pissed off that time ask that guy "Who the hell are you, bastard???" That guy only said... "I'm the one who gonna kill you"... "But before that, where is your warrior girl???"

Akiko who doesn't understand what the heck that guy said just curse that guy " What the fuck are you saying, fool??"... "Tch.... Oooh... You still didn't find your warrior yet ha???.....That's good..." Akiko reply "good???"... "Yeah, because it's easier for me to kill you.... hahaha"... when that guy gonna push that knife to cut Akiko's head... Suddenly, a light-circle with a lots of symbol of element and a powerful aura came out of nowhere with a handsome guy and has a grey-black spiky haired covering his left eyed. kneeling on the circle with a cold spirit energy on his body flowing... Then, that guy show his face which was covered by his robe not a long ago and said "Long time no see, Akiko-chan".... Akiko was shocked... "You are...."

Is that guy Renji Akira??

Or someone else???

Hehehe....

The story is getting suspend...

and mysterious...

Want to know what's gonna happen next..

Just wait and see....

Chapter 2 :- Truth

We only know truth if we search for it....

- Nakamura Mika -

After heard that angry voice, Renji just smile..... That blue-purple haired girl make him remember one person on the past.... He whispered to Akiko "Ne, Nakamura-san I'm sorry. But it's not appropriate to sleep in the class.... But if you not well, feel free to go to the clinic...." Hearing that voice making Akiko pissed off.... "Who are you tying to advise me??? Just scram you stupid bastard.... You just make me annoyed... Stupid guy..." with that, Akiko leave the class. All of her classmate were angry at her, even though there is no teacher that dare to talk to her, Renji Akira is still her sensei and it's rude to say something like that to a teacher...

Renji who just watched Akiko go away smiled.... He knows there is something wrong about that girl that he doesn't know.... Maybe it's better to search for the truth... After the school bell ring and it shows that now is a recess time.... So Renji go to the office to ask for that girl.... When he walked at the school corridor, everyone looked at him... A lot of girl scream because he looked exactly like the most popular and handsome of this time, Fujiwara Sora... With his blue eye and his spiky grey hair that almost match his skin has become an attention... He just smiled and bow whenever he sees the students... That smile can make every girl's heart melt....

When he arrive at the office, he once again become an attention when all the staff bow at him and some of the woman staff collapsed seen that handsome guy smiled at him... After that, he ask one of the old-teacher of the school named Yukimura Saika. When Yukimura-sensei heard that Nakamura name, he just sighed... That girl has been really popular among the teachers and the staffs at the school since she was once a hyperactive girl that suddenly change into a cold hearted girl....

Then he start tell the story about that girl. "I think you've heard about a tragedy called "The Dead of Nakamura's family" right?" Renji just nodded when he heard that tragedy name.... " You see, Nakamura Akiko is the last descendent of the Nakamura family.. You know that Nakamura family is popular because of their swordsman skills and their treasure.. They really is a rich people... I know they say all of the family's member was dead, but there is a survivor and that is Akiko. Her name is actually not Nakamura Akiko... It is Nakamura Hikari... After that incident, she was adopted by the Hiroki family and that is her second family... But that family did not last long after her parents who is Hiroki Saya and Hiroki Takeshi died just like her family died... They all have been killed by the same person who is still unknown even for this time... After that, she become a quiet person but not like this time... until she meet Sakura, her bestfriend... After Sakura died, she become a cold-hearted girl... She hates everyone around her... Everyone doesn't know that Akiko is the member of the rich and popular Nakamura family... You, principal and the old member of the school are the only person that knows about this.. I think she really need someone that can change her..."

Renji just make a stoic face when he heard that story... And he knows that girl is someone that is in trouble... After finished heard that story from Yukimura- sensei, he headed to the back of the school hall.. He just smiled and say to himself "I found you Nakamura Akiko my master".....

Who is Renji Akira??

What is he doing at the back of the school's hall??

What is the connection of him and Nakamura Akiko??

What's the mean by his last word??

To be continued.........

Chapter 1 : Renji Akira

A teacher is a person that will lead us to success.......
(Takeshi Ren)

In the 5-D class......

"Class, Today we gonna have a new homeroom teacher since Hikari-sensei is sick.... Please respect him and give him everything that's he need since he is a new family in our school.... Sensei, dozo...... said the principal of Geiko high school to the students... Mr. Takahashi.....

After that short speech, a handsome man come in... With his black-grey hair and his blue eyes is enough to make every girl in the class collapsed.... "Hajimemashite!!! My name is Renji Akira.... I'm a Biology teacher and I will be your new homeroom teacher..... If anyone want to ask something you can ask..... said the black spiky haired man with a smile on his face....

Every girl in the class had already make a lots of noise.... Everyone want to know about that new handsome teacher.... then, a long blondie hair girl name Kannagi Mikoto stand up, she ask the new teacher "What should we called you sir?? And Renji Akira said... "You can call me anything that you like.... hehehe...."

And then, heard a lots voice said.... "how old are you sir?? where do you live??? do you have a girlfriend???" Everyone was desperate want to know the answer.... Since their new teacher look just like the famous actor, Fujiwara Sora.... But he only give a sweet smile to his students..... "Ok!! Now I'm gonna take your attandance...... Ai Matsumori!!! "Here!!!" said the short black hair boy".... the calling went normally... everyone was paying attention to heard their name.....

Until the letter N.... "Nakamura Akiko" .... No one answered.... "Akiko-san???"Renji called a few times but no one answered..... At last, the head of the student, Seiji Sato said " She is right there... The blue- purple hair girl... The one who is sleeping at the back of the class...... "Oooh!!! There she is.... Why she didn't answer, ha??..... ask Renji to his students...

But no one answered.... Because he is curious about this girl.... He walked to Akiko's place.... And then he said calmly to the gblue-purple haired girl.... "Akiko-san, Are you ok?? Do you have a fever??"..... But no reply..... Renji kept asking and asking that girl until a cold-angry voice said.... "Shut up, bastard!!! Don't disturb my sleep.... You called me by my first name again I'll killed you.....

Everyone was quiet... No one dare to talk right now... since the coolest girl in the school who was one a hyperactive girl was mad.... Everyone was afraid and angry.... Only one person that's smiling now.... And that is.... Renji Akira.... A mysterious guy who only said about his name..... No one know....
Who is he???
What will he response when he heard that cold-hearted angry voice... Will he be surprised?? Or will he handle it calmly???

To be continued....

Destiny.... ( Monologue)

Friends ineed is a friends indeed....

(Shakespear)

It is the new semester for all students in Japan…. For students at Geiko High School, it is unbelievable because out of blue, it’s already second semester…
In the corner of a class… known as the last class, a lonely girl who is sleeping right now…. Was a girl that had gave up on her life…. A girl who had lost everything in her life (orphan)…. Nakamura Akiko… that was the name…. She was known as a quiet girl, weirdo, and lonely…. It’s unbelievable for a hyperactive girl to be like this…. She become like this when she…….

*****Flashback*****

Akiko was walking back home with her bestfriend’s Sakura… When they were waiting for the traffic light to turn green, Sakura unconsciously walk across the road without knowing the light was still red…. Akiko didn’t notice it… Out of blue…. Sakura was lying on the ground with her bloody head….. Everyone was screaming… Screaming for help… Akiko that just notice the incident for a few second… was shocked…. She went to Sakura who was now near to death…. Sakura only said a few word before she go…. “Live on Akiko…. Find a person that you really love……. Search the meaning of friendship and love…. I’ll always be by your side......Akiko who heard the word… Cried… Not because of what Sakura said… But because it’s happening again… The history was happening again…… The person that she loved so much …. Died without saying goodbye…..

After a month of investigation…
The police said Sakura death is not because of accident…. But it was a suicide…. That news really shock Akiko…. And she knew why Sakura killed herself… Not because of boring of the life…. But she’s tension for taking of Akiko for a long time… Even her family was like that…. Died without saying goodbye….

***** End of Flashback******

The pain of losing her friend and her family is like a pain of a thousand samurai who were cutting her into pieces…. Since that incidents, Akiko seems to gave up on her life…. She only live because Sakura ask her too…. She’s like a human that live but doesn’t have any soul… Waiting the God to take her life…. All her friends in the class just waiting…… Waiting for someone to change her….. And they hope…. One day… someone can make Akiko smile again…. One day….
To be continued…..

Announcements!!!

Hello...
For all that have been waiting for the Harakiri Blade manga...
Sorry to say,...
That the manga had already been replaced with other story...
The title is "Destiny"...
It's not gonna publish in manga yet...
Since the S.K.Y.K.I.E group members are separating into other countries for studying...
Therefore, it's gonna be published into novel...
And for those who wants to read the novel online...
Just go to the S.K.Y.K.I.E members blog...
For the first chapter will be out on 29th October...
It will be update weekly....
And after the novel is finshed... it will be published in manga...
Thank you...

Sincerenly...
S.K.Y.K.IE (Leader)
and Manager of the Group....
Takeshi Ren and..
Takahashi Yukiko....

Our life...

Everyone's life was decided by their cautious and knowledge...
That's what they called reality...
But that cautious and knowledge are all hazy...
And maybe it sounds better if we called it illusions...

Everybody live based on their interpretation aren't they??
But how far can you see in those eyes??
How far can you reach your dream by your determination???
How far can you reach the world with your hands??
And how far can you survive in this big world with those body of yours???

One day, when you had find the answer...
Find me, Search for me...
And when you tell the answer to me...
I will hold to that answer until the day I die....

The world we live on, is called reality...
But what if someone said that this world that we lived on are only an illusions???
Are they right??
Or they only talk nonsense???
Want to know the answer??

Try to reach your dream..
Try to survive in this world...
Never give up on what you do...
Believe in yourself...
Love yourself and your precious person,,
Take the past as a lessons and make your future as your goal......
and try to change your destiny...
This way, you'll get the answer fo sure....

If you don't understand what the message I want to give to you....
You're not an idiot...
You're just lack of vocabulary....
One day, you'll understand what I want to say....

A painful letter......

My Dear,

When you received this letter, I don't think I'm alive anymore.... This is my final and last letter. Thank you for everything that you had done for me.. I really appreciate it. You must be thinking why I'm writing this letter, right?? There is something I want to tell you before I go... Something that I can't tell you by mouth or by my heart... I keep this thing lock in my heart for such a long time... But, when I found you... You're the one who open my heart back... You're the one that give me light to live through this life.. Sorry, but you had already open my heart for such a long time but I'm scared to tell you this kind of thing...

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I love you

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I hope that I'll always be someone

that you can remembered..

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Eventhough, I'm not here with you...

Eventhough I'm not by your side anymore...

Eventhough we'll always be far apart.....

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My heart will always be

with you....

あいしてる.....

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さようなら.....

友達... Tomodachi

Mother born us...

Father care us....

Teacher teach us...

Siblings accompany us...

Friends???

Why we were born in this world??? Why?? Isn't because we were destinied to it??? But why we were destinied to born in this world?........ A lots of questions in my mind...... I ask a lots of people about this questions but different people have different answer...... One day, I've found my best friend has a trouble.... She ask me about the solution.... How to get rid of those troubles..... I ask her why you ask us..... ( my friends and I) she said because she doesn't want us to get in troubles....

She said she doesn't want us to get hurt or troubles because of her troubles..... In my mind, I said to myself... Is she stupid or something..... Why my friends and I become her friends?? She think we being her friends just because we like too??? Why she doesn't want us to know about her problem.... Maybe she will think that we are a busy body... But what is the use of friend if their friend in trouble?? Are friends only for fun? For entertaining? For enjoy yourself?

That's the biggest problems for people right now..... They think friends only for fun.... They think they can solve their problems by themselves.... And they think they have a courage to live through this hard life without a company.... Allah give life to us because He want us to know how to live through this big world.... How is the feelings to have friends.... How is the feeling to fall inlove..... And the most important thing, how is the feeling to be survive in tis big world.....

Someone become our friends because they want to protect us.... But there are human that have different meaning to become our friends.... What I want to say is......... FRIENDS are always there beside us because they see us like their family..... They want to protect us so much.... But there is also bad friends.... But that's nature right? There are always BAD and Kind.... fRIENDS WOULD SACRIFIES THEMSELVES JUST TO PROTECT US...... tHAT IS THE MOST NOBLE THING IN THE WORLD.... die because trying to protect their friends.... Have the courage to defense the justice just for their friends eventhough they know the risk.... That use a friend is....

The conclusion is..... Sometime when we think we're alone in this world.... When we feel no one gonna help us or stand right beside us.... That's wrong.... Never ever feel like that.... A person that have a feeling like that are worst than trash... Because there are always someone that gonna help us, that always be beside us whenever in easy or hard time.... and there always be someone that's gonna sacrifies themselves just for us... Just for our benefits... And that person is called a friend....

Friends is like a treasure...

Finding them is hard...

But once we find them...

It feels like a new breeze in our life...

Appreciate them, because once you let go of them, you never gonna find them again..... Take good care of themmm....

This is for all of my friends out there..... Never ever feel lonely... Because I'm here for you.....

And I'll do everything to protect you guys.... I'll sacrifies everything if I had too just to give you guys happiness.....
永久に最も良い友達....... Best friends forever....

もう少し..... Mou sukoshi....

Ok.... I'm Ren sister... My name is Takeshi Yui... I use my brother accounts...... He ask me to write everything that I like.. So this is the story.

I've been hunted by this word lately.... Mou sukoshi means one more time... And the reason that I've been hunted by this word is because..... One day a new teacher came to my school... He is a handsome guy.... But for some reason I doesn't like him.... He teach mathematics. His name is (no need to know). He is a very attracting person for girls... His been the Idol for my school... One day, he entered my class... He teach all of us mathematics.. It's a good news for girls but not for boys... When I look at him, he really remind me of my brother... He is a selfish guy, arrogant, full of pride, annoying, good at computer, and a good basketball player.... He teach us like he didn't want to.... First, I can be patient with him because he is a practical teacher and I thought it's fine... But he really caused the student a lots of trouble and that's making my friends result go down.... I accept that I just like other human being in this world... One day, I'm fed up with him..... He entered our class like an innocent people.... But he is the one that caused evryone in that class get punished by their parents.... I said to myself this is enough..... I came to the front class... And I yelled at him.... 'Who do you think you're trying to put all of us in trouble... You think we're your jokes... I'm sorry for asking this... But Are you become a teacher because you want to, or you are forced to... I know you're a good looking or whatever but don't try to insult us just because we're your student.... You know what? You are the most pityful teacher I've ever seen.... Trying to act like a grown man... But you're the one who caused troubles to us... Don't think your action can give benefits to your student...' I was really mad that time... Everything that in my mind I spill it out... Suddenly that teacher said もう少し.... I was shock by his word...

After that, he tears fell down from his eyes... He said that he is sorry for making all of us troubles...

I ask him, why you said one more time?? He keep repeating those word that kind make me feel annoyed... After an hour he explains to all of us.... He said mou sukoshi is the last word that his father said before he died... Firs I thought what is the connection between the words and the situation right now? After hear his story for about two hours, I get it why he acting like that....

He is a type of person who always give up fast, doesn't believe that he can change his destiny...

Before his father died, he is a big dreamers... Always want to achieve everything that he dreams... His father was his inspiration... But after his dead, his starting to give up... Starting to think that his dreams just for a fool... It was kind of weird though... Suddenly he said thanks to me.... I ask him why? He said thank you for realising the mean of the word mou sukoshi... 'My father said that because he ask me to work hard, start a new life, try to look forward and take the past as an experience... He ask me to become a person that can help each other in the future... I can't accept that fact because for me he is my aspiration, my target is to surpass him, but when he is gone it's like the world end for me... Thank you for realising me that the fact eventhough he is gone, there is someone that care about me..... He said mou sukoshi not because he's trying to pull me to achieve my goal but it he is worried about me that's why he said that word.... Thank you"

After that incident, he continued his study and he promise all of us that he will become a good teacher and never give up on his dreams.... From this time I've always encourage my frinds and myself, when we believe we can echieve something, believe that you can do it because if we always look to the future, take the past as an experience, realising the fact that we are the normal human being, WE CAN DO IT!!! And that's the mean of the word もう少し.... Give another chance and that's what you'll get it.... As long as you'll never give up.... You'll always gotta a chance to start a new life if Allah gives....